Bucket List No. 12 - Paddle - Caddy Lake Tunnel #1
Why it is on my list:
My parents have a place close to Caddy Lake and I have heard about the tunnels for a number of years and with the rise of things I have seen about traveling in Manitoba on Social media lately I became far more interested in the tunnels. I never did much research as they seemed a lot out of reach but lately since our purchase of our Body Glove from Costco (similar to this one) for about $400 I have been taking every opportunity I can to explore. I want to be clear while it is a stand up paddle board and I have since learned how to stand on them and can do fairly well I still haven't manage to get myself back on the board so usually I will sit or kneel on the board. I like them more than Kayaks because I can lay down on it or drag my feet through water - but alas that is a different post. The point is I have had a lot of excuses why I should NOT do the paddle - including the fact that it's a decent paddle, about 2 miles in one direction; that the wind can suddenly kick up on the lake and give big waves. Honestly though I am tired of living but not actually living because of fear and excuses.
I did it!
General Hike information:
Getting to the "Trail":
There is no "official" start to the this trip but there are generally two options: launch from Green Bay Resort OR park and launch from the Caddy Lake Camp ground parking lot. I parked at the campground and would recommend that for a number of reasons.Navigation on the trail:
phones. I will note that we have iPhones that are water proof and can be submerged and honestly I keep them in the case mostly because it has a long string on it so I don't loose or drop it in the water. I keep the string lashed to my life jacket. You can download an All Trails map - but honestly you head out and paddle North and keep going until you see tunnels so there is not a huge concern for navigation.
Starting the trail:
On the Island |
Final thoughts:
It was honestly on the way back that I learned something. The entire paddle to the tunnel I was working towards a goal I knew I wanted to reach and had dreamed of seeing but most of the paddle was on faith that I could do it that I could make the trip and that I hadn't gotten in over my head. Given that I didn't have a map or a trail guide to follow it was hard to know how far I had to go to reach the tunnel and how far I had to travel back to the beach. It wasn't until I reached the last bend and was looking at where Wynn and the other kayaker were that I realized just how far left I had to go and then in some ways worse I saw them keep going past where I thought the beach was so it was actually further.
I took a moment to stop and reflect in the middle of the lake—thinking about how far I still had to travel and how distant the little island seemed, even though it hadn’t felt that far when we started. I took a drink of water and looked back to see how far I had traveled to get to the tunnel and back to where I was. It was up to this moment that I still had doubts that I could do it, doubts that I would be able to paddle to the tunnel and back.
There I was, in the middle of it, almost done, yet I still didn’t believe in myself, even though all my progress was right in front of me. I was literally staring at the distance I had already traveled, proof that I was capable but still full of doubts
I sat there on my board and cried. It was such a metaphor for the last few years of my life. I’ve gone from being at my worst, seeing nothing but the end, to actually being out here and doing the things I’ve wanted to do—yet still struggling with doubt and lacking belief in myself.
In that moment, I realized that the old adage “don’t look back” was wrong. Looking back showed me just how strong I really am.
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